Hello. Yap. You over there.
Will you share you love with me?Psst. I need some<3.
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
to go back to a place much simpler than this. I need your love pull me up, cuz i cant swim on my own
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Hello. Yap. You over there.
Will you share you love with me?Psst. I need some<3.
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
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YOU NEVER KNOW MY HEART AND MY FEELING.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
no one ever understood me. no one ever understood my feelings. no one ever understood my mind. no one ever understood why I like this, why I was so. and now, I feel there is something that tore my chest. tearing my heart. a child who is weak because of something, that's me now. and now, I feel myself drifting into the ocean just keep listening to the tone of sadness. that's what I did. for what? what am I smiling? to what I understand other people? for what I care about all that happened. for what? because life never looked happy. have never felt beautiful. never. just anxiety. fear. concerns. humiliation. untruth. lies. hypocrisy. I want to cry for longer and do not want to stop. I want to go. immediately went and sat next to jesus. I want to sleep. sleep forever. please, do not ever wake me. I do not want to see it all again. feelings, thoughts, load up on my brain. all that exists. not anymore. I was a little girl who lives to suffer. live to weep. live to smile with compulsion. always patient, patient, patient. up to no good. I was the one who is not easy to say love. not easy for something easy, as well as the other girls. if now everyone saw my condition, how concerned. how the destruction of my heart. every second, every minute, every time only the fear in my heart. there who loves me? is there anything my dear? Is there still want me? all of these questions destroying my entire brain tissue. why I born? why many who saw me? why many are smiling at me? whether all right? whether all sincere? or whether it was all false truth? without realizing it, you're waiting for karma to come. Labels: nooneunderstandme. |
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M E R Y C H R I S T I N E P F E I F E R
Yap. Those thing is my name. Is that somethin wrong with it?Am 16YY~ have an english accent. Loved to make a new friend. And thirst for has man's elder brother coeval. I dont want highschool to end at all. I want to stay, where the shores soft. I like to stay in love. Lol im addicted to a little thing called l♥ve. I also love balloons, rainbows and silly string. Their sweet=) Im quite aware that i appear not much mature; im told quite frequently. Sometimes, iam way too opinionated for my own good. I procrastinate against a variety of many things. And iam oblivious to what people think of me. What can i say? Im different. Im not like everyone else. Im really easy to get along with. I overuse smiley faces alot. But i love overcast and dark clouds. I am going to save the world... Like as if you would believe. I live in wonderland. I love walking in the rain, cause then no-one knows im crying. Agree, that love is horrible. I hate love. At least i couldnt make someone hurt. But if they want to:] Im doing good to everybody but i hate with a rude people, so if you think youre means, stay away, bit©h! ;) And i hate it, how things and people changed and grow apart. And yeaah, i may come off as a super-duper shy person, but once i open up to you, i never shut up. Sometimes i was a crazy girl, tacky, and awkward! Haha but im really friendly. Very friendly. Just poke me, so we can laugh each other :o~ and, ill know you admire me [simplywish~] enough to mention me in the first place. Get me ah! x) merawr! |
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Hello. Ya, you over there.
Will you gimme some of your love?.It hurts me to want you so much.
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