Boy, you just dont know about it.

Will you share some
of your love to me?

Saturday, July 17, 2010

So. Do i need to tell all of you about my feelin right now? No.

Speechless.
Dont know what should i say anymore.

Im not mad. Im not sad. Im not cried. Im not what you guys thinkin right now. Im lying.

"My heart was made to be broken."
Poor me.

This mornin..
I checked my phone. And it says, ":|" by Ryan Beadles.
Then i checked another msg. Oh it says, "BABY sorry for being busy, :( i'll go to canada this past few weeks. :((... i misssssssssss YOU! so much!!!!!". Still, by Ryan Beadles.

Gettin so much excited. Right away, i reply back the msg and said, "Its ok, Ryan! At least you were fine overthere, and and im ok with it. Hmm but you makes me worried :(
How are you? I miss you so much :'("

Oh.

I opened my facey via pc. OH.
I got an information that is written "married". OH? Wheres the other writings? Where it says "with Ryan Beadles"?

Honestly. Everytime im tryin to write all of this story, i cant. Somethin stuck on my brain. A small virus continues to tickle and make it pain and even they forced my tears to exit.
This is so sad. I cant help myself.

He said, were gonna be forever. LIAR.
He said, he loves me. Im his baby. LIAR.
He said, "im not over u.." LIAR.
He said, "I Hate Myself For Losing You. :|" BIGGEST LIAR.
He said, "For you, I'd be! :)" LI-AR.
He said, "^_^ i luv u so much baby!!! :D" FUCKING LIAR :'(
He said, "MY LIFE AND MY EVEYTHING ~> Mery Christine" ;'(
He said, "^_^ .. baby i want hug u tight!!! ^^ i miss u so much!! i love you! :D.. im glad and happy that im urs baby ^_^" ;'(
He said, "v^__________^v .. no one can break us! :D" :'(:'(! FUCKING BIGGEST LIAR.
He said, "we need to BREAK this? :| ........... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" we just DID.
He said, "Mery Christine LOVE HER SO MUCH! =]" ...
He said, "I Love My GirlFriend No Matter What Happennn♥" :'< He said, "Mery Christine --> MY life, and EVERYTHING! i miss her :)"
He said, "i love Mery Christine !!!! ONE AND ONLY!!!! dont have crush or something!!! only her...love her so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -09♥" LIAR! LIAR LIAR!
He said, "thanks baby :* i will love you too..ONLY YOU!" :'/
He said, "SHE'S MINE NOW!!!!! ONLY MINE i love you so much Mery Christine ... :**** im only yours :*" :/
He said, "ich vermisse dich, ich wünschte du wärst hier. Mery Christine" :|
He said, "Mery Christine im inluv with. ;P"
He said, "So don't fear Don't you worry 'bout a thing I am here, right here, Don't shed a tear Whenever you need me I'll be here I'll never let you go;)" ;/

I do remember, when he asked me.. "haha.. u hav suitor? xD"

Thursday, July 01, 2010

Max.

Thursday, July 01, 2010

So...

Heres the story.

Fri. Jun 04 2010 17;15;33
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf Hey how are you doin? :)
@merychristinepf Hey how are you doin? :)

Then i forgot what i said to him.
But then he reply back on Sat. Jun 05 2010 11;28;00 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf

ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf hey how you doing? Im good thanks! just studying because i have some important exams coming up :) what you up to? :)
@merychristinepf hey how you doing? Im good thanks! just studying because i have some important exams coming up :) what you up to? :)

Again and again. I forgot what i said to him.
But then..

Sat. Jun 05 2010 11:38:07 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf
@ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf good good :) erm im expected to get an A but im really bad at Math!! :/ same im really bored haha :) where are you from?

Yes. I got syndrome "forgotten".. so well.

But then.. he replied my tweet, haha alright! He forget to put my username first, so they did like this...

Sat. Jun 05 2010 13:04:45 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web
ChuckNorrisRI;
yeah so ima fail my math :P oh cool! I love the US!! I live in the UK! so much worse over here :)

And of course i did reply his tweet back, cause you all know, i didnt get his tweet on my mention box :)

Right away, on Tue. Jun 08 2010 12:46:38 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf, he tweeted me first! Watch!

ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf hey! ;)

For-get. A-gain and a-gain, what i said to him.
But i bet i said "hi" too, to him.

He replied still on, Tue Jun 08 2010 15:59:47 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf hey im doing great thanks! ;) yourself? tep followed :D

Ya. Ya. Ya. Make sure you all understand me. I did forget again and again.
But i think.. i gave him some shoutie.. So, he tweeted this >>

Tue. Jun 08 2010 16:23:43 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf
Retweeted by you
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf <<
And..

Tue. Jun 08 2010 16:24:29 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf still? nawww thats bad! hope it gets better ;D lol yeah i will add you on facebook whats your name?

Tue. Jun 15 2010 04:23:57 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf
Retweeted by you
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf HEYYYY NOT BEEN ONLINE IN AGES!! missed you ;) hahah how are you? exams finish today!!! :D

Thu. Jun 17 2010 15:45:58 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web
Retweeted by you
ChuckNorrisRI;
heyy everyone not been on here in a while!!! everybody follow the BEAUTIFUL @merychristinepf !!! ;D

Thu. Jun 17 2010 15:47:30 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf
Retweeted by you
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf heyyy you are soo kind!! your new picture is really beautiful tooo :D anyway whats new with you? :)

Thu. Jun 17 2010 15:56:07 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf aww thankss ;) what you been up to lately? it is so hot i can barely sleep! haha

Thu. Jun 17 2010 15:56:30 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web in reply to merychristinepf
Retweeted by you
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf <<< people would be mad not to follow her!!!! :D

Mon. Jun 28 2010 16:23:45 (Mountain Daylight Time) via TweetDeck
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf hello hello hello :D ive missed our chats!! Im really busy atm, im not ignoring you i promise :D how is your summer going?

Mon. Jun 28 2010 16:31:26 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web from Albuquerque, NM in reply to ChuckNorrisRi
MeryChristinePf;
@ChuckNorrisRi oh pretty cool! What concert? Haha nothin really interesting with me right now, but Max, im so happy your online!!!! :')

Mon. Jun 28 2010 16:24:41 (Mountain Daylight Time) via TweetDeck
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf im going to a 4 day concert on thursday im so excited!! How are things with you? ;) anything new or interesting to tell me?

Mon Jun 28 2010 16:25:24 (Mountain Daylight Time) via TweetDeck
ChuckNorrisRI;
@merychristinepf your facebook photis are really pretty btw! :) your boyfriend is very lucky to have you!!

Mon. Jun 28 2010 16:34:25 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web from Albuquerque, NM in reply to ChuckNorrisRi
MeryChristinePf;
@ChuckNorrisRi oh pretty cool! What concert? Haha nothin really interesting with me right now, but Max, im so happy your online!!!! :')

Mon. Jun 28 2010 16:38:30 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web from Albuquerque, NM
MeryChristinePf;
@ChuckNorrisRi thanks, Max :') but.. i dont think so if he think like what you think, haha. Cuz i thought he like another girl now :') sosad

Done.

Ya. Done atm.
Still waiting for him to get online, then reply my tweets.

Mon. Jun 28 2010 20:00:26 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web from Albuquerque, NM
MeryChristinePf;
Its 13,013 tweets, and goes to my adorable friend ever @ChuckNorrisRi :) haha i love him, so you guys better follow him! ;) God bless, Max<3

Tue. Jun 29 2010 19:55:58 (Mountain Daylight Time) via web from Albuquerque, NM
MeryChristinePf;
13,300 goes to @ChuckNorrisRI. Hope we will meet soon :)

Back.
about 2 hours ago via web

Brb :/
about 2 hours ago via web
Delete
Max :(
about 2 hours ago via web

Friday, May 28, 2010

You. Messin around my heart.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Hi ppl. Just want to say somethin.
I feel cheated by someone. WhataFUCK?!

Man, my heart isnt yer dick. So please, dont play with it.
And you know that actually.

Sweetie, if you cant understand my silence, you will not understand my WORDS.
Well. I bet you even never know what i do. What i did. What my heart did for YOU. Is that enough? NOT EVEN.

I always try to be a GOOD GIRL. Do you know that? NOT EVEN. NEVER!
So, how could i say then to you, to make you UNDERSTAND MY FEELING?! Huh?
Its really hurts myself to take a breath.

Please STOP do it! You make me to think about the stupidest mistake in my life. Yes. Thinkin about the one who HURTS me the most.
Really. But i wish yer not in my dreams.

Dude. YER NOT SUPPOSED to exist in my life.
And, im NOT SUPPOSED to love you.
Im NOT SUPPOSED to CARE about you!
Im NOT SUPPOSED to wishin you were here. Right next to me. I shouldnt!
Im NOT SUPPOSED to WONDER where you are. Not supposed. Yes. Not supposed.
Im NOT SUPPOSED to thinkin again and again what you do.

Youre AWFUL!

You wrecked my WHOLE life!

Sweetie, relationship should be between two people. Not the whole UNIVERSE.
And remember, when you said, you WOULD NEVER do that again? Well. You DID! Again.

I hate. Really hate arguin with you. Because i really dont wanna lose you.
Have you ever think about it?

The WORST feelin ever isnt knowing whether i should WAIT or GIVE UP.

My heart was taken by you. Even BROKE by you, and NOW it is in pieces by YOU!

I feel stupid when i read you conversation with that chick.
I dont want to know that. But i know that.
It hurts me. My heart sinks.

Do you ever, just want to call me at 2am?
Do you ever, just want to give me a hug?
Do you ever, just think that youll never let me go?
Do you ever, just want to go up to me and tell me how much you love me? BULLSHIT.
Do you ever, just start out yer window and think about me?
Do you ever, just like you want with me forever?
And do you ever, JUST think that you WILL NEVER LET ME GO?
I DO. I DO, I DO, and I DO!

Sweetie. You never know what you have until you lose it. And ONCE you LOSE IT, you CAN NEVER GET IT BACK.

And you think missin me is hard? You really should try missin yerself.

I pretend i dont care bout you anymore. But i do. DAMN.
DAMN. DAMN. DAMN. Yer in my mind again!

I was just sittin here in amazement.
Foreal. Im afraid to losin you.

PS; sorry. I get ALLERGIC to BULLSHIT. Like you. Dude.

Labels: YOU.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

April 21, 2010

Thursday, April 22, 2010

T; "where is he?"
Me; "um idk. But i think, his right hanging out right there"
Tw; "you sure? Are you sure?"
M; "um idk. Maybe?"
Tw; "are you positive? Positive sure? Haha"
M; "there! There!!"
T; "which one?"
M; "that guy wi.."
Tw; "with the hat, and red bag pack"
T; "Malcolm?!"
M; "yeah. Malcolm"
T; "oh no, Mery. His a playboy"
M; "really? meeeen"
A; "yeah he is. He try with me too"
M; "really? oh well"
T; "yeah. He try with me too"
Tw; "oh yeah? Well, so have you kiss him yet?"
T; "em no. Haha"
M; "you talk to him too much, T?"
T; "yeah"
M; "you text with him?"
T; "yeah"
M; "until now?"
T; "yeah"
M; "you talk to him?"
A; "hmm yeah, he gave me his number. He wants me to text him, but i didnt ttext him until right now. Haha"
M; "iew"
T; "so you still wanna kiss him?"
M; "jerk! No."

Still today...
Lunch time. But we just walk around.

T, she was walked over. Then..
K; "hey sweetie, whos your friend?"
T; "who? Mery?"
K; "oh Mery? Hey Mery :)"
M; "hey :)"
Tw; "eww he likes you, sweetie!"
M; "haha"
T; "his my ex"
Tw; "really? Eh. How come his so ugly!?"
M; "Lol his not, Tw"

On 7th period. I was called them, but well they didnt hear me as well.
...going to restroom.

M; "eh hey, T!"
T; "hey haha so you want me to *....* with him?"
M; "wheres Tw, T?" "eh noo hehe"
T; "its ok, im ok, tho"

Tomorrow. Which is right know. Today.
I was walked to the stairs, then i saw him.

K; "hey Mery :)"
M; "hey :))"

At the hallway...

M; "wheres Jordan!"
Tw; "well, idk"
M; "i really wanna talk to him :\" "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
Tw; "well, you look evil, tho"
M; "HAHAHA ya i know. I was think im weird, tho. Cuz i always tell you about him, 'i wanna talk to him' but i..."
Tw; "yeah! You never do it"
M; ":\\ you know that, im so shy :/"
Tw; "dont be shy, sweetie"
M; "im just afraid if he was ignore me :("
Tw; "no wont not. But if yeah, his a jerk, then"
M; "ha-ha"

In the courtyard....

M; "wheres Jordan!"
Tw; "....."
M; "wheres Jordan!"
Tw; "....."
M; "wheres Jordan!" "eh look! His right there!"
Tw; "come on"
M, walk slowly...
Tw; "come on"
M; "eh eh eeeem maybe later? Hehe"
Tw; "come on..."

Teeeet teeet teeet.

Tw; "well, bye sweetie"
M; "uh. Bye :\"

M, still stand up over there.

H; "hey Mery, what are you doing?"
M; "eh? I just watching hehe" M, she was jump. "EH! i like that guy!!!!!!!!"
H; "which one?"
M; "the guy with blue shirt!?"
H; "oh lets talk to him!"
M; "talk what???"
H; "idk. Just say hi"
M; "Ah? Nooo."
H; "lets gooo! Just like, hey i like you!"
M; "nooo!"

He just walk away. Well,

H; "just like, hey yer cute"
M, "telat."

Thursday, March 18, 2010

co?

Have you kissed more than 4 people this year?
yea.

Do you remember the first time you met the last person you texted?
yea.

Have you ever done a drug other than marijuana?
no.

Have you ever dated your number one on myspace?
not yet.

What's the relationship between the last person you texted and you?
not even clear.

Have you ever kissed anybody whose name starts with a A,J,C,K,M?
maybe.

Ready to get really deep now?
sure.

Last person to call you?
idk.

Last person you called?
idk.

Have you ever been completely alone with a boy in his room?
never.

Who did you last go out to eat with?
always go alone.

If your parents searched your room, would they be mad at what they'd find?
maybe. if they could find it.

Is the last person you kissed black?
nope. never.

Asian?
maybe.

Could you see yourself dropping out of high school?
oh please, no thank you.

Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone on your top friends?
never.

What does the last text in your inbox say?
"lol"

Are you taller than 5 foot 7 inches?
no. iam 5'1 or 5'2~

Are all of your friends virgins?
idk.

Last person you were in a car with?
family except dad.

Have you accidentally sent a text to the wrong person?
before yea.

If you could describe your day in one word, what would it be?
fuckinbored.

Does anyone know your password besides you?
yes.

Have you ever lost someone who meant a great deal to you?
yeah. but who cares.

Are you happier now or two months ago?
IDK.

You're crying at 12 at night, you call?
nobody.

Are your eyes the same color as your dad's?
idk. idk my dad.

What would you do if you found a suitcase with a million dollars in it?
keep it! and save a lot of it.

If you could erase someone from your life who would it be and why?
everyone. and everyone knows why

Do you believe exes can be friends?
no. not at all. well, if you never loved them yes.

Be honest, do you miss anyone?
yes I do.

Where do you wish you could hop on a plane and vacation to right now?
BEACH with him (who?)

Is there anyone you cannot go a day without thinking about?
yes.

Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 72 hours?
i did.

Have you ever tripped and fell over a stick?
im sure.

Are you forgiving?
not really.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
not really.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
yeah.

Did you get to sleep in today?
yes.

Where will you be in 1 hour?
IDK.

Are you a naturally happy person?
i dont think so.

Is there one person that you don't want ever to leave your life?
friends. fml.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
kezia.

Do you think your first love still loves you?.
maybe.

Do you like your English class?
yes sir.

Do you eat candy daily?
yea. time at school

Do you know anyone with a really weird name?
agus.

Do you pick your words carefully, or just tend to blurt everything out?
i pick them most of the time. but when im mad i blurt everything im thinking out.

Do you get annoyed by one word conversations?
YES.

Are you attracted to anyone now?
colton.

The person you like comes up to you and kisses you what's your reaction?
kiss him back? or well, ill scream.

Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed?
i didnt choose one of them!!! they're both not very good. well sex isnt bad but its embarrassing.

What do you find to be sexy about the opposite sex?
idk lols.

Are you listening to any music?
yes.

Did you sleep alone last night?
no.

Is anyone on your top an ex girlfriend/boyfriend?
no.

Does the song you're listening to remind you of anyone?
actually.

Honestly, are you dating 2 people?
yes. lols

Could you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
oh meeeen lol no.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

wat?

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed on the lips?
duh.

Is your room clean?
no.

Do you hate the last person who called you?
no.

Think back two months ago, what was your relationship status?
its complicated. oh well, im single.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
big disaster for my heart and my head-_-

If you are being extremely quiet, what does that mean?
im thinking, upset, sad, disappointed, quiet, tired, or i don't wanna talk.

Is your birthday soon?
9 months.

Who do you wish was with you at the moment?
colton.

Are you drunk?
never.

What was the last song you listened to that made you cry? When was it?
ummmmmmm.....idk

Could you survive without electricity?
no.

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?
no.

Are girls too dramatic?
yes.

Does the thought of marriage scare you?
it has but when i think of him it don't <3

What were the last words you spoke out loud?
im forgot.

Would you date someone who lived in another state?
i have before. but never again.

Who is someone that you would do anything for?
bf. um? no one, i guess.

What did you do tonight?
i dont know.

So, how are you?
im alright. :\

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
idk depends on what happened

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them?
yea.

Will next Friday be a good one?
maybe.

Do you miss anyone?
yea :'\

Do you think it's disgusting when girls get really wasted?
idk.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
myself lol but probably my sister.

What is the last beverage you had?
water.

If you were upset, who is the first girl you'd go to?
ashley.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
1.

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Yes.

Have you ever been caught skipping class?
maybe haha.

What are you going to spend money on next?
idk

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
yes!

Do you think things will change in the next 3 months?
may-be.

Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
my bestie or umm idk.

Hate anyone?
yea.

How many of your friends do you truly trust?
a few not even a couple but like 5

Are you starting to realize anything?
yea. but... what?!

How many people do you have 'a thing' for right now?
just one actually :|

Who was the last person in your bedroom?
my mom.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
actually.

Where was your default picture taken?
my bedroom.

When was the last time you talked to your number 2?
idk.

Do you need to say anything to anyone right now?
yes! if he wasn't been busy and want to text me first D:

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?
half-open.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
depends.

First thing you do when you wake up?
check my phone.

What's on your bedroom floor right now?
garbage, i guess.

What do you currently hear?
my crazy sister.

Ever talked to someone that was drunk?
i dont think so.

Did you have a dream last night?
yes! i was dreamed of colton.

Do you trust people easily?
no.

Are you easily scared by horror movies?
yes.

Do you still turn to your parents for advice or comfort?
i dont think so.

What were you doing at 9 this morning?
waking up.

Do you like to argue?
no. but i will if you push my nerves.

Have you ever felt replaced?
yes. sucks.

Labels: remembering

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

what?

We all change, right?
mmhmm.
some for the better.
some for the worst.

What’s something you just don’t give a fuck about anymore?
him!

Anything you're waiting for?
im still waiting for, his gonna be the one. yea thats all i'm waiting for.

Do you care what you look like?
actually.

How’s your heart been lately?
complicated. hurt. sick.

Did you have a weird dream last night?
not really. i have dreamed of him. and it was fun! i hope its gonna be real :(.

If someone liked you would you want them to tell you?
ergh... idk for sure -_-

What do you want more than anything right now?
his mine.

Do you ever think "what if" about anything?
i dooo.

Are you nice to everyone?
only the people i like.

Did you sleep alone last night? if not with who?
yes indeed i did. with my lil sis and lil bro~

How many people are you interested in?
1.. or 2... or 3. ergh idk.

Do you cross your legs when you sit?
sometimes.

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
somewhat.

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
oh well, i cant >_<

Do you miss anyone?
more than ever :\

If I say "psycho", who is the first person that comes to your mind?
her! her! him! him!

Do you want to say anything to anyone?
yea:'(

Name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
ill follow you until you love me, papa-paparazzi
promise ill be kind, but i wont stop until that boy is mine
-paparazzi

Who was the last serious conversation you had with?
no one.

How well do you know the last person you text?
pretty well.

Do you have the same color eyes as your siblings?
may-be. i dont even know about that. hahah

Do you have the same color hair as your siblings?
not really. but yeah

Are you wasting your time on someone?
yea. i do. stupid.

Do you believe "drunken words are sober thoughts"?
in some circumstances.

If you were so drunk you couldn't even stand, would the last person you texted take care of you?
i dont even sure.

When someone says "we need to talk," what runs through your mind?
what happened noww... disaster oh disaster >.<

What would you do if someone you knew had an abortion?
speechless.

Can money buy happiness?
temporary happiness.

What's worse, ignorance or stupidity?
stupidity. you cant help it when you just dont know things.

Do you know anyone who doesn't smoke pot?
idk.

Did you know that alcohol is more harmful than weed?
liver damage. ha. probably.

Do you follow your head or your heart?
rock paper scissors. oh head. oh my heart, tho. oh i do not know. (!)

Do you ever get so frustrated that you just wanna cry?
yes, fer sure.

After taking a shower, do you change in the bathroom or in your bedroom?
depends.

Have you ever kissed anyone named Tom?
no.

Do you delete people off of myspace?
no, i guess.

Do you like surprises?
mmmmh about what?!

Do you have a teddy bear?
i do. eh i dont :\

Do you wear Hollister?
i dont :|

Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
sunset.

Have you kissed the same person more than 5 times in 2010?
yea. my lil borther.~

Would you ever consider piercing your lip?
haha sometimes. but eh no thank you.

Do you have any piercings?
ears.

Will tomorrow be better than today?
i-hope.

If you were in the hospital, would the last person you kissed be there?
i havent kissed any person, except my LITTLE BROTHER. so, yeah!?

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
don't plan on it. i hope not.

How did you wake up this morning?

Do you think anyone's thinking about you right now?
hmm maybeee and I HOPEEEEEEE SO!

Pancakes or French Toast?
french toast.

Would you rather have roommates or live alone?
roomies!

How can people tell if you're in a bad mood?
i dont talk & cuss a lot. oh sometimes i just vent to their.

Labels: remembering

Monday, March 08, 2010

FRIENDSHIP ;)

Monday, March 08, 2010

Seorang sahabat tidak akan membiarkanmu merusak diri sendiri. Senantiasa punya waktu untuk mendengarkan masalahmu danmemberikanmu nasihat terbaik. Bisa bersikap terbuka dan apa adanya di dekatmu. Tidak merasa segan menerima saranmu.

Seorang sahabat akan selalu menepati janji, bicara jujur, meluangkan waktu untukmu, dan bisa tertawa bersamamu.

Seorang sahabat akan tahu apa yang ingin kau katakan, meski kau tidak mengucapkannya. Memahami perasaanmu, meski kau sendiri tak bisa memahaminya. Akan selalu memaafkanmu, sebelum kau bisa memaafkan dirimu sendiri.

Seorang sahabat selalu bersedia menolongmu tanpa pamrih. Mau datangmenyemangatimu saat kau bertanding.

Seorang sahabat tidak bicara yang jelek - jelek tentang dirimu. Ia akan mengatakan penampilanmu bagus - meski sebenarnya tidak.

Seorang sahabat mempunyai tempat istimewa di hatimu dan selalu ada saat dibutuhkan.

Seorang sahabat tidak akan menertawakanmu saat kau melakukan hal yang bodoh. Bersedia menemanimu sepulang sekolah.

Seorang sahabat adalah orang yang bisa kau hormati, menghormatimu, dan mau berbagi perasaan.

Seorang sahabat membuatmu merasa nyaman dengan dirimu sendiri.Mendorongmu meraih cita - citamu. Tak pernah iri padamu.

Seorang sahabat tidak akan melanggar janjinya untuk tidak membuka rahasia. Tidak membicarakanmu dengan teman yang lain. Abadi dan selamanya.

Seorang sahabat akan selalu berpihak padamu saat kau merasa seluruh dunia menentangmu.

Seorang sahabat selalu membukakan pintu bagimu. Takkan pernah mengkhianatimu. Membantumu mendapatkan teman - teman baru.

Seorang sahabat memaafkanmu setelah bertengkar.

Seorang sahabat bersedia membagi makan siangnya saat kau lupa membawanya.

Sahabat tidak akan ikut tertawa kalau ada yang membuat lelucon jahat tentangmu.

Seorang sahabat menyukaimu sebagaimana adanya, bukan karena penampilanmu, sebab itulah yang paling penting.

Seorang sahabat tidak selalu berpikir sama seperti dirimu. Akan mengadukanmu saat kau merokok, akan memberi tahukan pada ibumu saat kau membutuhkan kacamata.

Seorang sahabat akan selalu percaya padamu saat orang - orang lain tidak mempercayaimu.

Menurutku, sahabat itu kau, dia, dan mereka.

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Friday, December 04, 2009

Gue. dan hidup Gue

Friday, December 04, 2009

Gue sangat bersyukur. Masih bisa nafas detik ini

Gue sangat bersyukur. Sehari lagi yang Tuhan kasih buat gue

Gue sangat bersyukur. Gue masih punya orangtua

Gue sangat bersyukur. Punya tempat buat tinggal

Gue sangat bersyukur. Hari ini dibeliin sepatu winter

Gue sangat bersyukur. Masih bisa makan hari ini

Gue sangat bersyukur. Masih ketemu temen-temen disekolah hari ini

Gue sangat bersyukur. Dapet satu-pelukan disekolah

Gue sangat bersyukur. Bisa ikut weekly test dikelas ESL hari ini

Gue sangat bersyukur. Hari ini dibeliin jacket winter

Gue sangat bersyukur. Semua anggota tubuh gue masih lengkap, tanpa cacat cela sedikitpun

Gue sangat bersyukur. Tadi pagi masih bisa catok rambut

Gue sangat bersyukur. Masih bisa ngerasain salju hari ini

Gue sangat bersyukur. Masih ngerasain chicken teriyaki lagi, tadi di mall

Gue sangat bersyukur.

Gue sangat bersyukur. Masih bisa ngelakuin semua aktifitas gue sepanjang hari ini

Gue sangat bersyukur. Gue punya Tuhan Yesus yang peduli gue

Semua emang harus oenuh dengan ucapan syukur.

Ga cuman disaat lo seneng, baru ngucap syukur, tapi disaat lo lagi sedih, lagi banyak masalah, lo perlu bersyukur.

Saat ini, gue ga lagi seneng, makaya gue nulis beginian.

Saat ini, gue lagi kecewa. Dan gue sangat bersyukur, gue masih punya 'rasa', walopun yang gue dapet kecewa

Bangun tidur, gue mengucap syukur ke Tuhan. Terimakasih buat sehari lagi, yang Tuhan tambahin buat gue

Sehari lagi, dimana gue bisa bernafas sampe detik ini

Sehari lagi, dimana gue masih bisa ngelihat kehampaan disekitar gue

Mau tidur..

Gue tetep terus mengucap syukur, buat sepanjang hari ini yang Tuhan kasih buat gue

Sepanjang hari ini, yang penuh dengan macam-macam 'rasa'

Sepanjang hari ini, yang mengecewakan, menyakitkan, penuh perang batin

Sepanjang hari ini, Tuhan masih nganter gue, dengan selamat sampe rumah

Apapun yang gue lakuin, gue selalu terus mengucap syukur. Ga peduli itu baik apa buruk

Dan saat doa terakhir, gue minta sesuatu ke Tuhan.

Penting dari semua itu... Pengampunan.

Pengampuan buat sepanjang hari ini, buat pikiran jahat gue ke seseorang disekolah

Pengampuan buat sepanjang hari ini, masih berantem sama ade

Pengampuan buat sepanjang hari ini, punya rasa benci yang besar ke salahsatu anak disekolah

Pengampuan buat sepanjang hari ini, masih ngerasa iri sama sekitar

Pengampuan buat sepanjang hari ini, buat kekecewaan gue yang ga ada abisnya

Tapi darisemua itu, gue tetep dan selalu ngelakuin yang terbaik buat hari-hari gue

Dan seenggaknya, gue bersyukur bukan untuk terpaksa

Karna itu, gue ga pernah tau, kapan gue bakal mati. Dan gue emang ga bakal tau, kapan jantung gue bakal berenti sebentar, dan bahkan seterusnya

Yang gue tau, saat gue mati gue ada dikumpulan orang benar, dan ga ada penyesalan buat semua itu.

Friday, November 20, 2009

sampah

Friday, November 20, 2009

Hari ini kedua kalinya gue adu mulut sama anak sekelas (satu anak dikelas). Semua emang dia yang salah. Sori sori ajadeh gue anti nyari ribut duluan, apalagi ama anak 'kaga dikenal' gitu najis -_-

Gabriela (g)
Mery (m)

g : i like your hat (sambil macem ngeplak gitu)
m : THANKSYOU BUT DONT TOUCH MY HEAD!
g : hah? dont touch my head? dont touch my head? HAHAHAHAH (tolol -_-)
m : (mo nangisdeh. udah deg-degan, jantung udah kaga karuan, pengen nonjok kegendutan, mana semua pada temen ama itu anakdeh setan!)
g : (ngomong ama temen-temennya pake 'bahasa' tu mereka-mereka -_-) bitch! (belaga ngomong kearah temen-temennya)
m : (gue yang sementara ngewarnain gambar langsung nengok kaya disinetron-sinetron) YOU! (tambah deredeg bener dah ini)
g : haha you..

Dan gue ga bisa ngomong apa-apa lagi. Gue nangis aja udah (apa lagi) sambil terus warnain gambar, dan bener-bener berusaha ga narik ingus (yoalah, ketuan dong gue nangis kalo itu)
Terus bikin gue panas itu manusia, ngatain 'bitch' berulang-ulang~
Gue bisa ngapain? Ya terus nangis...

Udah deh kan tuh, gue ambil deh hape, gue mulai deh nelpon rumah. Kaga ada yang angkat. Nelpon mama, ga diangkat juga~
Gue sms deh kan akhirnya, gue sms mama, gue sms dad. Heh pas lagi sms-an gitu, si guru pengganti hari tiu bilang "please bring you cell phone in here. dont use cell phone in the class ". Ngehe. Dengan malu + SUPER DUPER DOUBLE apalah gue jalan tuh lewatin dia sama temen-temennya. Eh sial banget (pengen banget nulis kata-kata jorok buat ungkapan ke itu anak. cuman ya itu, dosa deh ntar gue -,-) dia malah ketawain gue. Gue lewat sambil nunduk, dan duduk-nangis lagi- sambil senyum penuh arti.

Udahdeh kan tuh, akhirnya udah bel lunch sabodo gue lambat-lambatin keluarnya. Gue balikin pensil warna sambil jalan lemot~
Terus kemeja guru, ngambil hape~

Keluar kelas gue buru-buru buka 2 sms-dari mama sama dad- katanya gue kebagian information dibawah. Hohyeah, gue telpon deh mama jelaasin sejelas-jelasnya.
Ditangga pas mo turun gue liat dia noh. Hokelah gue cuman bisa muter-muter disatu tempat. Datengdeh 2 temennya (yang gue pikir ga teralu dukung dia banget banget) sambil meluk gue, terus bilang apalah kaga jelas gue dengernya~
Secara gue sambil nelpon, dia mah pada diem ajenoh, mikir (pastinya) apadeh itu yang gue kata~
Terus selese nelpon mereka berusaha ngomong ke gue, cuman gue ga gitu peduli sambil ninggalin mereka. Dan pas gue lewat tangga-masih sambil nangis- ada gabriela kan noh, gue senyum ke dia dan dia ngeliatin gue gue pas bener temen-temennya yang 2 orangtadi sambil neriakin manggil gue dan gue tetep jalan~~

Sampe deh diruang information bagian dalem, gue mulai ngomong ke staffnya. blablabla~
Terus si staff ke bagian 11 grade, nerusin apa yang gue bilang ke dia. Nah staff 11 grade manggil security dah. Dateng noh, dua~~
Si staff jelasin deh apa masalahnya, terus gue dibawa ke security office. Ditanya-tanyain, segala macem ga lama temen gue nelpon, nanya gue dimana, eh ga lama dateng merekanya. Gue keluar (depan pintu) terus mereka nanya apa masalahnya, gue ceritain eh mereka malah bilang "but just like that?" gue bilang iye, cuman dasar gatau masalahnya ajadeh makanya dia mikir biasa aja~

Smbil mereka terus ngomong ke gue, sambil terus gue nangis. YEAH-_- si criss lewat deh, masuk keleas pas depan security office sambil bawa makan siangnya dengan natap gue bingung + ga 'peduli'
Gue ngeliat dia ya sama, sebel dan GENGSI yoh -.-

Terus gue masukdeh gue ke security office lagi. Ga lama mama gue dateng noh, mereka pada keluar, pada mo ngambil makan siang sekalian siap-siap sama jam pelajaran selanjutnya~
Oke, udah 2 deh tuh. Gue dikatain, terus dicuekin (emang gue juga sih yang bilang ke criss kaga usah peduli peduli ama gue -_-)

Nah gue mulai diperiksa dan ke activities office buat mastiin yang mana yang namanya gabriela, soalnya sekirat 6 apa 7 yang nama depannya gabriella. Dan pas ke-4 dapet deh noh potonya~
Balik lagi gue ke security office deh. Setelah ngisi semua surat-surat, ga lama salahsatu security dateng dan bilang katanya gue yang ngatain dia bitch. OHGOD gue ngerasa banget ini ga adil hidup gue. Hei jelas? gue difitnah dong ini! Dan gue bener-bener ga terima.
Yang bikin gue tambah mikir ga ada kejujuran lagi di ni dunia, sampah semua karna katanya "semua temen-temennya juga denger, gue yang bilang bitch" SETAN! gue bener-bener pengen tarik tu semua rambutnya. Ckck bener-bener terlalu sampah ini hidup.

Apalah hampir satu setengah jam kemudian si gabriellanya dateng. Masing-masing punya translate-an. Dia yang translate salah seorang security, gue ya mama gue -_-
Dan akhirnya 'selese'. Jujur, gue ga ikhlas sama sekali. Jelas, gue difitnah abis-abisan! Gue ga suka begini mah, kalo emang jagoan ga perlu dong ngebohong? Tunjukin kalo lo emang ngelakuin. HAHA berani emang cuman dibelakang aja -DD HAHA-HA~~

Emang ga ada hari tanpa ~~nangis~~..